Leptopril?

Well, I am just stacking the pills and stacking the pills now.

Still taking the potassium, Stacker 3's sometimes, and now I've added Leptopril too. It claims to help significantly overweight people drop the lbs fast.

We'll see, I guess.

It has suppressed my appetite and I ain't tired, yet. So I guess I can't complain. I paid just over $20 for a bottle of 95 pills, recommended dosage is 4 pills a day (2 @ a time) but this chicky has quite the caffeine tolerance, so I have been taking 6.

IDK where I'm at weight loss wise, but I DO know I bout jeans a size smaller than I have been wearing, and they are too baggy. Falling off my ass even.

So, something's working. No food? Diuretics? Incredibly dangerous amounts of stimulants? A combination of the above? I don't know. Something though.

Here's to keeping it up and staying out of the ER...

No Doz 'n Aqua Ban

Alrighty folks, I think I may be pushing it again. Living off caffeine and diuretics didn't pan out well for me last time, and I'm doing it again.

WTF is wrong with me?

Well, that's easy. I wanna be skinny.

I hope I don't kill myself in the process.

It's like watching a car wreck in slow motion - I know what I need to do to prevent serious harm, but I just can't do it.

I want to be skinny and damn the consequences of getting there faster than is healthy. I mean, how unhealthy is it to be fat?

Fuck 2 lbs a week.

That's all I can say to that.

2 lbs a week, that's 'healthy' weight loss.

Fuck.

That.

8 lbs in a month???

I might as well slit my wrists right now if I'm only gonna lose 8 lbs in a month.

That or go buy a goddamn cheesecake and binge.

No effing way.

I will do what I need to do to lose this weight.

I'm taking my potassium pills. I ain't drinkin the Gatorade, tho. 30 cals a serving. What a waste.

Gotta find something with electrolytes and no calories - any suggestions???

Starting Over

Starting over is hard work. But, this water fast is the only viable option I feel that I have to lose 50 lbs in 4 weeks, and even that is going to be pushing it substantially.

So, I gotta do it. Waking up in the morning is the worst, I was some food :) But once I get over that hump, all is well.

One thing I have noticed, though, is that my digestion seems to have slowed way down. This is embarrassing to admit, but the last couple nights I have woke up in the early morning (like 4 AM) with the most painful gas I have ever felt. Like excruciating, no weight on the tummy kind of thing. It hurts.

And this is headache day for me again, I think, so I have that to look forward to.

On top of everything else, my water heater tanked, so I am going to be spending the night in a motel. At least I will have cable :)

Wish me luck and send good vibes my way, folks. I'm gonna need all the help I can get.

Harder This Time

I don't know why, but keeping my focus is a lot harder this go round. Maybe it's because I'm stressed. IDK.

I still ain't eating, still drinking water - have added some potassium supplement to my repertoire to keep muscle cramps at bay - apparently using diuretics is very detrimental to your potassium reserves LOL. Oops.

Love life issues are what spurred this attempt at extreme and marked weight loss in the first place, and now love life drama and stresses are making me want to binge and binge and binge. Yes, I am a stress eater. I am dealing with drama and it makes me want to chow.

How fitting.

Anyway, I won't eat. I wouldn't have eaten before if not for the hospitalization and the threat of an extended stay if my labs didn't improve. I think the incident gave me the info I need to continue my fast safely and without undue harm to my person, so there is no reason not to keep it up.

Cheerio folks, here's to a dinner of water n diuretic pills with a side order of Gatorade :)

Sunday

So, this shoulda marked my 6th day of fasting. Unfortunately, things went wrong over the weekend and I hafta start over today. So, it's day one again.

Lotsa water and caffeine in my system now.

Starting over.

None of the weight lost was gained back, so I guess that's a plus.

ER's and Docs

Ok, the fast reconvenes in earnest in the AM when I wake. I know, what a binging slacker, right? Truth be told, I spent much of the last 24 hours in the ER, faking my way through blood tests so's to be left the eff alone.

I was able to get past the f/u blood tests by eatin and chugging Gatorade today. Manana I gotta get back to biz. Water fast with a side of Gatorade. Extra diuretic. If i pass out again, fu#k it. If I'm still breathing, this sh#t goes well.

Doc: You have the same lab results as I would xpect to see from a chronic purger or anorexic.
Moi: Seriously? I have been feelin under the weather for the last few days. Maybe I had a virus (prove I didn't asshole).
Doc: Everything looks better today, be sure to call if you aren't feeling well.
Moi: Of course. Thanks for your help Doc.

Grrr.

Feel like a fatty. No more food for this soon2bskinnychick for sure :)

Ended Up in Hospital

So, I was so weak and drained yesterday. Terribly. Yesterday at about 5ish I laid down for a nap and stood up to go to the bathroom, ended up blacking out and smacking my head on the dresser. This turn of events led me to the ER.

Two bags of IV fluids later, and the doc divulged that my labs were 'weird;' low iron, extremely low potassium, bizarre liver and kidney enzymes and totally out of whack electrolytes. I was there for 4 hours. Luckily, no stitches or concussion.

BUT I was only released on the promise that I return today for follow up blood work. Meaning that my fast has been well and truly broken in order to provided passable labs this afternoon. The young ER doc even insisted on personally getting my cell number "If you aren't here tomorrow @ 5pm, you WILL be getting a call...."

So, I have to eat today. And drink. I don't want to be admitted. Fast begins again after I get home. I am going to have to mix sports drinks or something in with the water to keep my electrolytes in check - can't be ending up in the ER every few days. This is a small town. Word will get around. And the doc straight up asked me if I was bulimic. Which I am NOT, but lack of food and diuretics have the same effect on your blood work, I think.

What I did wrong, I think, was relying on caffeine to make me feel less tired. And the reason for my tired was dehydration. And caffeine is a diuretic, which made me more dehydrated.

Vicious cycle.

I will do better.

Cheated

Dammit.

I cheated.

I ate part of a burger.

I feel like shit.

Gotta start over.

Hell, I'll be happy to still make it 30 days from 3 days ago with no more lapses.

I was sooooo hungry and wiped out feeling, tho.

Dammit again.

I will do better.

Weird Headed

Ok, this is probably my karmic reward for bragging that I felt spectacular earlier. So, I'll take it without bitching. But suddenly, I feel really, really lightheaded. Almost like medicine head or tunnel-visiony. Don't know how best to describe it, but I wouldn't dream of driving right now or doing strenuous exercise or anything. Might wake up in a heap on the floor, or in a ditch, or a hospital room.

Not really tired mentally or physically, but like by brain is kind of two steps behind my body.

Does that make any kind of sense?

Anyway, I am hoping this feeling is fleeting, and considering a nap to improve my mental condition. Unfortunately, the amount of caffeine currently coursing through my veins may make that impossible.

Less Need For Sleep?

Strangely enough, I have been not sleeping very well. Not even that tired. Like, I have some physical fatigue going on, but, truth be told, my mind is soooo wide awake its nothing short of bizarre.

Woke up @ about 5:30 AM and tried to doze back off - I'm a chick who has NEVER in my life been a morning person. Not for a second. Yet here it is 6:19 AM and I am doing a blog post, bright eyed and bushy tailed.

What's more, I didn't go to sleep until well after midnight and woke up a few times in the interim.

I hate weighing myself every day, and I really should know better, especially at the onset of a fast where much of my weight loss could (and probably is) water weight. That being said, according to the bathroom scale, yours truly has lost 6 lbs in not quite 3 days.

That is A LOT.

Not to mention that I am not even tempted to eat. I had modified my diet substantially before beginning this fast, and I have LOTS of healthy, fast-approved fruits, veggies and juices loading up my fridge. And I look at them, and they have no appeal what so ever.

I did read up on a little trick last night, tho, for keeping electrolytes in balance during a fast. Apparently, squeezing a little bit of lemon juice into your water is a great way to keep electrolytes up and prevent water poisoning. So, later, at a slightly less insane hour, I am going to head to the store and grab a couple of lemons. Let's hear it for not being hospitalized this month LOL

Links to oil pulling info site as well as fasting wiki to be posted momentarily.

Doing Good

Hey, I was really worried about these first few days. I really was. But honestly, at this moment, I am feeling better than I did a week ago. It has been about 60 hours since the last time I ate, meaning I am about 1/10 of the way through my fast. I know, that seems like a small dent in a big number, but I had read over and over that the first few days were the hardest. If this was the hard part, I am expecting smooth sailing til March.

One thing I have incorporated into my regimen, though, is something called oil pulling. I will try to get a link to a comprehensive site up in the morning, but the gist is that you swish with sesame oil for about 15 minutes first thing in the morning on an empty stomach. It is supposed to eliminate bacteria from your mouth. Since part of the fun of fasting is detoxing and since much of the detoxing is done through your mouth, I decided that I would detox my mouth too.

Sounds kinda silly without all of the proper background information, but I have read a lot of good things about the technique and its benefits, and since my stomach is currently always empty, I figured "What the hell?"

It wasn't as gross as it sounded, either. I truly wasn't looking forward to having a mouthful of oil, but it didn't really taste at all. It was a strange texture, but bearable. And if it works the wonders its touted to work, it will only make my fast that much more beneficial.

I mean, let's face it. I am fasting for weight loss far more than I am fasting for detox. That being said, I am going to detox regardless, so I might as well reap as many rewards for my good, food avoiding behavior as possible.

Viva la fasting :)

Third Night

Well, the first 48 hours are well and truly behind me. The headache is gone. I'm feeling a wee bit tired, physically, but not too bad. Have been loading up on Stacker 3's all day. (I know, the water fasting purists are gonna rip me a new one.)

Mentally, though, I am feeling really good. Lots of clarity. No mental fatigue.

I even exercised this morning.

Honestly, I was expecting to feel a little crappier by this point.

All is well, though.

48 Hour Update

Okey Dokey, folks. Here's the skinny :) I have lost 3 lbs in 48 hours. THREE!!

Those are results I can live with, and seeing the scale is such an incentive to keep going.

48 hours down, only 672 more to go!

Grumbly Tummy

So, I woke this AM and the pounding headache was gone. My stomach is empty, and I'm a little bit hungry. But not as hungry as you would imagine for someone who hasn't eaten in something like 44 hours.

BUT my stomach is feeling grumbly - like a sour stomach thing going on or something....I'm assuming this is part of the digestive changes that are supposed to take place. I don't like it much, though. I mean, it is just drawing my attention to my stomach and the fact that it's empty.

Other than that though, and the fact that my mouth seemed more morning breathy than usual this morning (a few days of yucky breath are also par for the course at the beginning of an extended water fast according to what I've read - toxins being excreted - supposed to get more manageable as the fast goes on. Worst case scenario, I start chewing gum next week. Don't really want to go there this early on, not til I get past my hungry all the way...) I actually feel pretty good.

From what I understand, the first few days (1-4) of the fast are the hardest. I am almost through the first 2 days - 4 hours til the 48 hour mark. If I can make it through the weekend, I'm thinking it's gonna be some smooth sailing for the remaining duration :)

Second Night

Okay, so this is my second official night of fasting. Truth be told, the desire to eat is FAR eclipsed by the gigantic headache I'm still dealing with.

Actually, the headache is a good thing. There is NO WAY I'm going to binge and lapse in this fast if doing so means that I have to repeat this headache just to start over. No effing way.

So, if I can sleep through it, I'm gonna crash. If not, I'm gonna stay up and keep chugging my water and hope for relief.

Detox?

I read over and over that doing a water fast would trigger some detox effects - headaches, backaches, etc.

Well, I am about 30ish hours into this thing, and I have THE worst headache. Pounding. I had some hunger pangs earlier, but they weren't substantial.

But now, NOW, my head feels like the worst caffeine headache I have ever had. But I have been taking the Stacker 3's (totally caffeine laden), so I know it ain't lack of caffeine. And all I've been doing is drinking water, so I know it ain't a dehydration thing.

Anyway, I have no intention of breaking my fast to cure a fleeting headache. Hell no.

That being said, though, my head really, really hurts. Badly.

So, if you are considering a fast, keep in mind that the things you have heard about detox headaches are TRUE.

Painfully true.

24 Hours In

I am now 25ish hours into the fast - water, Stacker 3 and smokes are sustaining me. I have fasted before, and the first 1-3 days are always the hardest. The physical hunger pangs have started, and that is always distracting. Another 72 hours and I will be beyond a grumbling stomach.

Until then, I am chugging water (I know, I know, water hitting an empty tummy isn't the best feeling in the world) and taking glances of my fat ass in the mirror.

There's some inspiration.

Also, was gonna go tanning (cigarettes and tanning beds- healthy combo, right?? LOL), but the damn tanning salon was closed for lunch or something.

Lunch? Who needs food - I want to tan NOW!!!

:)

30 Day Water Fast Day 1

In an effort to take my 5' 6" self from 180 lbs (that is a BMI of 29.0, just south of 'obese') to 130 lbs (a BMI of 21.0, which is on the lower end of 'normal'), I am embarking on a 30 day water fast. I know that many people will say that method of losing weight isn't sustainable. Duh. But it is a damn good jumpstart.

Unfortunately, I spend a lot of time alone in my house, nothing to do but think about the food in the kitchen (I have two kids, I can't just clean out the cupboards and be done with it), so I need an outlet, a distraction. Hence, this blog.

I won't post pics or my real name for fear of the hate mail that this kind of effort will surely generate. I am a girl who has had eating disorder issues as a teen. My low weight was 101 @ 5' 6", which is a BMI of 16.3, well into anorexic territory. After having kids, I just kept packing on the pounds. I tend to get OCD about stuff, which made weight loss hard for me. It's either all of nothing. I either control the food or the food controls me.

I'm done being controlled.

I have looked into this type of fasting and will soon be posting some links; this is not something I entered into blindly. It is not particularly unhealthy, especially when you are starting out with the kind of chunk I'm carrying around. In fact, many experts agree that this kind of fast is a great way to detox your body and start with a clean slate.

I am planning on sticking to water, herbal teas, cigarettes and Stacker 3 diet pills and Aqua Ban diuretic pills. This is so not an MD approved regimen.

I don't care.

I am sick and tired of looking into the mirror and hating my reflection.

I am planning on daily (if not more frequent, depending on my mood and the call of the kitchen) updates, and invite all of the help and support I can get.