Well, I am just stacking the pills and stacking the pills now.
Still taking the potassium, Stacker 3's sometimes, and now I've added Leptopril too. It claims to help significantly overweight people drop the lbs fast.
We'll see, I guess.
It has suppressed my appetite and I ain't tired, yet. So I guess I can't complain. I paid just over $20 for a bottle of 95 pills, recommended dosage is 4 pills a day (2 @ a time) but this chicky has quite the caffeine tolerance, so I have been taking 6.
IDK where I'm at weight loss wise, but I DO know I bout jeans a size smaller than I have been wearing, and they are too baggy. Falling off my ass even.
So, something's working. No food? Diuretics? Incredibly dangerous amounts of stimulants? A combination of the above? I don't know. Something though.
Here's to keeping it up and staying out of the ER...
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
No Doz 'n Aqua Ban
Alrighty folks, I think I may be pushing it again. Living off caffeine and diuretics didn't pan out well for me last time, and I'm doing it again.
WTF is wrong with me?
Well, that's easy. I wanna be skinny.
I hope I don't kill myself in the process.
It's like watching a car wreck in slow motion - I know what I need to do to prevent serious harm, but I just can't do it.
I want to be skinny and damn the consequences of getting there faster than is healthy. I mean, how unhealthy is it to be fat?
Fuck 2 lbs a week.
That's all I can say to that.
2 lbs a week, that's 'healthy' weight loss.
Fuck.
That.
8 lbs in a month???
I might as well slit my wrists right now if I'm only gonna lose 8 lbs in a month.
That or go buy a goddamn cheesecake and binge.
No effing way.
I will do what I need to do to lose this weight.
I'm taking my potassium pills. I ain't drinkin the Gatorade, tho. 30 cals a serving. What a waste.
Gotta find something with electrolytes and no calories - any suggestions???
WTF is wrong with me?
Well, that's easy. I wanna be skinny.
I hope I don't kill myself in the process.
It's like watching a car wreck in slow motion - I know what I need to do to prevent serious harm, but I just can't do it.
I want to be skinny and damn the consequences of getting there faster than is healthy. I mean, how unhealthy is it to be fat?
Fuck 2 lbs a week.
That's all I can say to that.
2 lbs a week, that's 'healthy' weight loss.
Fuck.
That.
8 lbs in a month???
I might as well slit my wrists right now if I'm only gonna lose 8 lbs in a month.
That or go buy a goddamn cheesecake and binge.
No effing way.
I will do what I need to do to lose this weight.
I'm taking my potassium pills. I ain't drinkin the Gatorade, tho. 30 cals a serving. What a waste.
Gotta find something with electrolytes and no calories - any suggestions???
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Starting Over
Starting over is hard work. But, this water fast is the only viable option I feel that I have to lose 50 lbs in 4 weeks, and even that is going to be pushing it substantially.
So, I gotta do it. Waking up in the morning is the worst, I was some food :) But once I get over that hump, all is well.
One thing I have noticed, though, is that my digestion seems to have slowed way down. This is embarrassing to admit, but the last couple nights I have woke up in the early morning (like 4 AM) with the most painful gas I have ever felt. Like excruciating, no weight on the tummy kind of thing. It hurts.
And this is headache day for me again, I think, so I have that to look forward to.
On top of everything else, my water heater tanked, so I am going to be spending the night in a motel. At least I will have cable :)
Wish me luck and send good vibes my way, folks. I'm gonna need all the help I can get.
So, I gotta do it. Waking up in the morning is the worst, I was some food :) But once I get over that hump, all is well.
One thing I have noticed, though, is that my digestion seems to have slowed way down. This is embarrassing to admit, but the last couple nights I have woke up in the early morning (like 4 AM) with the most painful gas I have ever felt. Like excruciating, no weight on the tummy kind of thing. It hurts.
And this is headache day for me again, I think, so I have that to look forward to.
On top of everything else, my water heater tanked, so I am going to be spending the night in a motel. At least I will have cable :)
Wish me luck and send good vibes my way, folks. I'm gonna need all the help I can get.
Monday, February 8, 2010
Harder This Time
I don't know why, but keeping my focus is a lot harder this go round. Maybe it's because I'm stressed. IDK.
I still ain't eating, still drinking water - have added some potassium supplement to my repertoire to keep muscle cramps at bay - apparently using diuretics is very detrimental to your potassium reserves LOL. Oops.
Love life issues are what spurred this attempt at extreme and marked weight loss in the first place, and now love life drama and stresses are making me want to binge and binge and binge. Yes, I am a stress eater. I am dealing with drama and it makes me want to chow.
How fitting.
Anyway, I won't eat. I wouldn't have eaten before if not for the hospitalization and the threat of an extended stay if my labs didn't improve. I think the incident gave me the info I need to continue my fast safely and without undue harm to my person, so there is no reason not to keep it up.
Cheerio folks, here's to a dinner of water n diuretic pills with a side order of Gatorade :)
I still ain't eating, still drinking water - have added some potassium supplement to my repertoire to keep muscle cramps at bay - apparently using diuretics is very detrimental to your potassium reserves LOL. Oops.
Love life issues are what spurred this attempt at extreme and marked weight loss in the first place, and now love life drama and stresses are making me want to binge and binge and binge. Yes, I am a stress eater. I am dealing with drama and it makes me want to chow.
How fitting.
Anyway, I won't eat. I wouldn't have eaten before if not for the hospitalization and the threat of an extended stay if my labs didn't improve. I think the incident gave me the info I need to continue my fast safely and without undue harm to my person, so there is no reason not to keep it up.
Cheerio folks, here's to a dinner of water n diuretic pills with a side order of Gatorade :)
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Sunday
So, this shoulda marked my 6th day of fasting. Unfortunately, things went wrong over the weekend and I hafta start over today. So, it's day one again.
Lotsa water and caffeine in my system now.
Starting over.
None of the weight lost was gained back, so I guess that's a plus.
Lotsa water and caffeine in my system now.
Starting over.
None of the weight lost was gained back, so I guess that's a plus.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
ER's and Docs
Ok, the fast reconvenes in earnest in the AM when I wake. I know, what a binging slacker, right? Truth be told, I spent much of the last 24 hours in the ER, faking my way through blood tests so's to be left the eff alone.
I was able to get past the f/u blood tests by eatin and chugging Gatorade today. Manana I gotta get back to biz. Water fast with a side of Gatorade. Extra diuretic. If i pass out again, fu#k it. If I'm still breathing, this sh#t goes well.
Doc: You have the same lab results as I would xpect to see from a chronic purger or anorexic.
Moi: Seriously? I have been feelin under the weather for the last few days. Maybe I had a virus (prove I didn't asshole).
Doc: Everything looks better today, be sure to call if you aren't feeling well.
Moi: Of course. Thanks for your help Doc.
Grrr.
Feel like a fatty. No more food for this soon2bskinnychick for sure :)
I was able to get past the f/u blood tests by eatin and chugging Gatorade today. Manana I gotta get back to biz. Water fast with a side of Gatorade. Extra diuretic. If i pass out again, fu#k it. If I'm still breathing, this sh#t goes well.
Doc: You have the same lab results as I would xpect to see from a chronic purger or anorexic.
Moi: Seriously? I have been feelin under the weather for the last few days. Maybe I had a virus (prove I didn't asshole).
Doc: Everything looks better today, be sure to call if you aren't feeling well.
Moi: Of course. Thanks for your help Doc.
Grrr.
Feel like a fatty. No more food for this soon2bskinnychick for sure :)
Ended Up in Hospital
So, I was so weak and drained yesterday. Terribly. Yesterday at about 5ish I laid down for a nap and stood up to go to the bathroom, ended up blacking out and smacking my head on the dresser. This turn of events led me to the ER.
Two bags of IV fluids later, and the doc divulged that my labs were 'weird;' low iron, extremely low potassium, bizarre liver and kidney enzymes and totally out of whack electrolytes. I was there for 4 hours. Luckily, no stitches or concussion.
BUT I was only released on the promise that I return today for follow up blood work. Meaning that my fast has been well and truly broken in order to provided passable labs this afternoon. The young ER doc even insisted on personally getting my cell number "If you aren't here tomorrow @ 5pm, you WILL be getting a call...."
So, I have to eat today. And drink. I don't want to be admitted. Fast begins again after I get home. I am going to have to mix sports drinks or something in with the water to keep my electrolytes in check - can't be ending up in the ER every few days. This is a small town. Word will get around. And the doc straight up asked me if I was bulimic. Which I am NOT, but lack of food and diuretics have the same effect on your blood work, I think.
What I did wrong, I think, was relying on caffeine to make me feel less tired. And the reason for my tired was dehydration. And caffeine is a diuretic, which made me more dehydrated.
Vicious cycle.
I will do better.
Two bags of IV fluids later, and the doc divulged that my labs were 'weird;' low iron, extremely low potassium, bizarre liver and kidney enzymes and totally out of whack electrolytes. I was there for 4 hours. Luckily, no stitches or concussion.
BUT I was only released on the promise that I return today for follow up blood work. Meaning that my fast has been well and truly broken in order to provided passable labs this afternoon. The young ER doc even insisted on personally getting my cell number "If you aren't here tomorrow @ 5pm, you WILL be getting a call...."
So, I have to eat today. And drink. I don't want to be admitted. Fast begins again after I get home. I am going to have to mix sports drinks or something in with the water to keep my electrolytes in check - can't be ending up in the ER every few days. This is a small town. Word will get around. And the doc straight up asked me if I was bulimic. Which I am NOT, but lack of food and diuretics have the same effect on your blood work, I think.
What I did wrong, I think, was relying on caffeine to make me feel less tired. And the reason for my tired was dehydration. And caffeine is a diuretic, which made me more dehydrated.
Vicious cycle.
I will do better.
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